the turtle speaks

Thoughts from Luke Hartman.

I code for work; love my travel agent wife; do freelance web development; and try to raise two men.

Jul 14

Isaac helps George plan his next play

Isaac helps George plan his next play

Laughs between turns

Laughs between turns

George makes a play

George makes a play

Dessert bars

Dessert bars

Another Tuesday, another family game night. This edition included bagel bites, Skip Bo Deluxe, and homemade dessert bars.

It was also an excuse to see how well the 35mm 1.4 worked indoors as I try to determine whether I want to keep it or not.


Some of my best memories were playing ball/catch with my dad. I wouldn’t mind if it were the same for them

Some of my best memories were playing ball/catch with my dad. I wouldn’t mind if it were the same for them


Jun 30

Jun 26

A few reflections on my first year without grandparents

About this time last year, I lost my paternal grandfather, Marshall Hartman. Kate and I had just come back from Ireland, and he passed the next morning. 7 weeks later, to the day, my grandmother passed away.

I was fortunate to be born with four grandparents and three great-grandparents. While I didn’t see them as much as some others, due to growing up in Australia, but their influence on my life was fairly strong. My teenage years involved lots of time with family; 23 cousins and 8 sets of aunts and uncles.

I didn’t lose any grandparents until 2003 and 2006, and had two grand grandparents until junior high.


I realized last summer I had no more grandparents. It hit me a little when Thanksgiving came.

Dynamics change when your grandparents die. The generation and their descendants are gone, and everyone moves up a step. Grandparents are gone. My parents are the grandparents for my kids, and aunts and uncles lose the direct family connection that brought us together. We still get together, but it’s not the same, and won’t ever be. I have become the person in the role my parents had in my mind while growing up. My kids are me. It’s just part of the cycle.

I loved all my grandparents differently and have fond memories of them all. I probably felt more affinity to my Hartman grandparents, due to surname identity and my dad’s frequent stories about them. Marshall Hartman was well-respected, as was Luther, his father (and my namesake); I inherited some of that respect by virtue of his life.

It hasn’t been a drastic change, not a difficult one, but more one of perception. A clear realization of the cycle of life that has moved to another stage. A loss of ties, history, care, and, to an extent, identity.

We got together with much of my mom’s family today for a baby shower. The mood was good, time was enjoyed, and I love them. But it wasn’t the same without the grandparents. Our initial common link is gone.


Granddad yesterday, I drank a chocolate malt from Braum’s [your favorite] in your memory. I would have poured a sip on the concrete, but I know how thrifty you are; didn’t want to waste any :-)


Jun 25

solvitur ambulando

A Latin phrase meaning, “it is solved by walking.”

I was recently talking with my bride about solving a problem while walking to watch a basketball game. I had been working at it for a few hours, but no easy solution had materialized. I wasn’t a few minutes from the door, however, when the answer came to me. It was a little frustrating because it was an easy solution, but one that did not appear until I took a walk.

Has this ever happened to you? A challenge or an answer coming while you’re not thinking about it? There’s something powerful about our created minds and their ability to process information without having it at the forefront.

Resolved:

  • More frequent walks. Most every day could be improved with a short walk or two.
  • Less continuous time put into problem solving. If it doesn’t have an answer fairly soon, shelf it and let the mind work for a bit.
  • Occasional long walks, to let the mind wonder, meditate, and reset itself.

A sea lion picture to start your Friday.

A sea lion picture to start your Friday.



Jun 21
George, enjoying a summer afternoon, chalking up in our backyard, ready for some fun.

I love our backyard.

My entry in Mandy’s Fun Photo contest.

George, enjoying a summer afternoon, chalking up in our backyard, ready for some fun.

I love our backyard.

My entry in Mandy’s Fun Photo contest.


“Without religion the coherence of an ethic of compassion cannot be established. The principle of respect for persons and the principle of the survival of the fittest are mutually exclusive.” R. Z. Friedman